Tell my mother, tell my father
I've done the best I can
To make them realize
This is my life
I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying
Sometimes goodbye is a second chance
I think tonight was the last straw. Tonight, 19 days before my 21st birthday, I finally approached my mother about my wish to start spending weekends with my boyfriend.
She flipped the fuck out.
She told me that what I said was the most appalling thing she had ever heard. She told me she doesn't think I was even raised in our household. She told me it went against everything she ever grew up knowing. She also ripped apart my dad's family when I mentioned I had already talked to him about it, calling them all kinds of names. She refused to give me reasons. When I asked for them, she replied "No. Just no." According to my mother, if I want to sleep over my boyfriend's, I'm going to have to move out.
All right, mom. I'll see you later. On Wednesday the 20th, I will be housesitting for a family friend for a week. If all goes well, I will not be returning to this house. I don't want to isolate my family, but this is how it's going to have to be.
I'm not just sulking because I didn't get my way in this one argument. My mother is constantly and forever on my back about who I hang out with, where I am and when, and what I'm doing. She calls me millions of times to check up on me, and even uses my other friends to try to get to me. I swear, I have never done anything to make her distrust me. When I was growing up, I was the weird kid who called her mom when we walked from the playground to the school 3 minutes away, just in case mom needed me. When I was 18 my friends laughed more when I was constantly in contact with mom. Ok, mom. I'm old now. I have to be a big kid. If you're not going to give me my freedom, I'm going to have to take it.
Please don't cry one tear for me
I'm not afraid of what I have to say
This is my one and only voice
So listen close, it's only for today
Comments (2)
You grow, girl! The road to womanhood is hard enough without the most important woman in your life clinging to your ankles. I'm sure she's scared you're going to make irreversible mistakes but she needs to remember how she learned the most important things she knows.
@judyrutrider - Thanks! I think I'm more apt to make stupid decisions when I'm trying to avoid being like her... if she just loosened up a bit, this would all be more fun, and easier on the both of us.